Holy Week (2) – Good Friday Lament – What’s wrong with the world?



This Good Friday the two local Methodist Pioneer Ministries (Share & Open House) took the opportunity to worship together. A drum beat led us before we nailed to the cross, where we held a prayerful lament based around words suggested and collected from people attending food bank sessions over the last couple of weeks. People then named and added additional “wrongs”.

In the evening the cross was taken to Judiths Open House where it remained until Easter Sunday.

“When Words are Not Enough….”


Lauras prayers 1

Well it’s months since my last post – both Advent and Christmas have passed without comment from these pages, and now we have entered the season of Lent. It is always a time for inner reflection and hopefully (though not always) of some revelation too. In my Pioneer Ministry (Share) we began the forty days with a short prayer time to mark Ash Wednesday; around five of us shared a short liturgy, received and offered ash crosses on our foreheads, and spent time at various prayer stations.

Lent this year has also coincided with the first real steps towards trying to secure funding from Sheffield Methodist Circuit and elsewhere for the continuation of my ministry and other work beyond the end of 2018. This process itself has forced me to re-examine what I do, how and why and do it, and how I work alongside others (in Church and beyond). Needless to say this has brought both positive, and more challenging emotions to the fore; much has been done in so many ways since I began here in 2010. People have come and gone, faces and roles have changed and the world moves on – however it is to this place I still feel called and the ministry I attempt to fulfill that I still feel called to.

Hopefully I will find more words in the coming weeks as I continue to reflect and discern the new paths …. meanwhile I sit and contemplate the prayer poem featured at the top of this post written the other week by my friend Laura.

When words are not enough,

Let us hold the silence.

When prayers are not enough, 

Let us act out our love.

When life turns us about,

Let us find our way.

When all is darkness,

Fill us with hope and love.

When we are weary,

Let us rest.

When we are full of fear,

Send us a bird singing sweetly, a rainbow.

Lift our spirits and remind us of the beauty in this world.

When we are ready to follow you once more;

We will walk your path,

Sing your song,

Dance with the seasons,

Weave the threads,

Mould the clay.

As the tears fall,

We have joy in our hearts,

To be part of your creation.

(Laura Hill 2018)

Our Fair City


ckcx7ylwgaar15uSome of you might remember the Sheffield Fairness Commission back in 2013 and its report on the inequalities highlighted within the City. Well three years on and the campaign seems to be getting a reworking, in the last fortnight I received an email           re-inviting me to be a “Fairness Champion” (how could I refuse?) and informing me:

“Over the next twelve months we are going to be working on ‘Making Sheffield Fairer’, focusing on four campaigns – Fairer Food, Fairer Money, Fairer Work and Fairer Futures – initiating as many actions and as much ‘doing’ as possible, in order to start making as many small changes as possible that will make a real difference in communities and neighbourhoods across Sheffield.”

Great – so after yet another Friday in our food bank in Parson Cross, another Friday where we’ve fed around forty people (over half of which are were children) – let’s talk about “Fairer Food”. First thing Friday morning I was contacted by a Social Worker who asked me if I could help support one of her clients, a single Mum with two children. The Social Worker said she knew that her client wasn’t actually living in our catchment area, she had a referral for a neighbouring food bank but had been told that morning that they couldn’t help as they’d run out of food (a situation many food banks including ours have come close to before).  We helped, of course we did, “Glad we can ….” as we often say “….but sad we have to”  but lets be clear none of this is fair – none of this is just.

I’ve said it before, as have many others, FOOD BANKS ARE NOT A SOLUTION to either poverty or food insecurity, they are simply a desperate defensive response, a field hospital if you will for some of the casualties of current policies.

When Health Visitors phone me up asking for formula milk for a young mum and her child it proves FOOD BANKS ARE NOT A SOLUTION.

When social workers, aware of the growing shortages, offer to set up workplace donation boxes to just “help out a little” it proves FOOD BANKS ARE NOT A SOLUTION.

And when food banks have to ration food, or turn people away because of the shortages on their shelves, it proves FOOD BANKS ARE NOT A SOLUTION.

We can’t go on like this!

I hear from friends who move in higher powered circles than me, valiantly banging their heads against walls that I would have long ago lost patience with. Telling me that those who walk the corridors of power still argue that the reasons behind why people turn to food banks are complex and cannot be put down solely to Government policy. Yes they are complex, we see people every week with a range of issues from mental health issues, benefit delays, debt, family breakdowns, homelessness, budgeting issues and many more. But the complexity of the problem does not mean the policy solution is to leave things to charity and voluntarism, these have a place but not for the general provision of basic welfare and social security, these are issues dealt with by a civic and civil society, fairness and justice don’t come through someone offering you free food.

So why do I continue to be involved and help run a food bank, when it seems that through our efforts all we are doing is giving government and those with power an excuse to continue to ignore the plight of those on the receiving end of “austerity” politics? In the end, for me its a question of faith and of solidarity with my brothers and sisters in need, as it says in the book of James:

“Suppose there are brothers or sisters who need clothes and don’t have enough to eat. What good is there in your saying to them, “God bless you! Keep warm and eat well!” – if you don’t give them the necessities of life?”
(James 2:15-16)

That still doesn’t make food banks a solution,  it makes them a humanitarian response to a desperate human need.